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OtabekxYuri: Cycle of Grief II
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Ignorance Pt. 2
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If there was one aspect I prided myself in, it would be that I refused to let the stress of my family interfere with my dancing.
I’ve been involved with ballet from as early as toddlerhood, having joined my mother during many of her final practices and recitals. As I got older, it became a sacred experience that I desperately held onto and still do to this day.
The best way I could describe my feelings...is that ballet possesses significance in the foundation of the adult I'm trying to become.
I think what gets under my skin the most is that I can easily remember when my mother was still visibly in her right mind. My fondest memories of her are in this same studio, tying her shoes, braiding her hair, and performing at the barre - the same routine I follow now. Mom was a vision to behold in her prime - a true goddess of dance, as others put it.
Through the few years we were able to attend together, she had a sayi
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Cycle of Grief: Prologue
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Ignorance. Knowledge. Resistance. Realization. Anguish. Acceptance.
This is my cycle of grief.
What I'm grieving over is a little harder to place and explain. Finding one solid source is more difficult than most people could imagine.
First of all, the innocence that came with my childhood was short-lived - almost nonexistent. What left me a lifetime ago was currently unattainable, and what I found hardest to swallow had been coming to terms with this truth.
In addition, becoming a teenager during all of this felt like the end of the world; I found myself in denial and refused to accept this reality built around me. I didn't want to come to terms with the changes going on in my life, and I planned to go down fighting against the grain. Back then, it felt as though an entire decade and a half of my life had been wasted on living up to and accomplishing the dreams of someone who became nothing more than a cr
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Occupation/Function: Being the first prototype gem designed in the Kindergarten, Obsidian (who was meant to be Smoky Quartz), was embedded in a plate of molten rock and hatched as the durable volcanic glass she is today. Deciding she was far from a failed project, although not what she expected, Yellow promptly found use for Obsidian as her 2nd in Command; as the Rebellion came into play and the Gem War began, Obsidian became a front-line warrior on the battlefield, tearing through the resistance piece by piece. She was also the Gem responsible for being in charge of training new Kindergarten Gems the art of battle.
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Ignorance Pt. 2
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If there was one aspect I prided myself in, it would be that I refused to let the stress of my family interfere with my dancing.

I’ve been involved with ballet from as early as toddlerhood, having joined my mother during many of her final practices and recitals. As I got older, it became a sacred experience that I desperately held onto and still do to this day.

The best way I could describe my feelings...is that ballet possesses significance in the foundation of the adult I'm trying to become.

I think what gets under my skin the most is that I can easily remember when my mother was still visibly in her right mind. My fondest memories of her are in this same studio, tying her shoes, braiding her hair, and performing at the barre - the same routine I follow now. Mom was a vision to behold in her prime - a true goddess of dance, as others put it.

Through the few years we were able to attend together, she had a saying she lived by that has been ingrained on me since:

“When you step through that door and into the studio, your life on the outside is forgotten. In here, you are an entirely new individual.”

So, I rewrote myself on a daily basis; with each pirouette, jeté, and glissade, I would transform into someone who was better than the last.

“Finish with an arabesque penché...keep your leg held high. Focus on your balance. Arm drawn back, head tilted forward, other hand outstretched towards the ground...you are a creature of grace and beauty, Yuratchka Plisetsky. You are vicious in precision and power - elegant, poised, deadly. You will present those qualities to your audience; do not hide who you are from me.”

I am a force of nature - a force to be reckoned with. I am untouchable.

“Fall to rest."

I lifted my body from the angle I held, turned a pirouette, and allowed my foot to fall, coming to rest in first position. I released a breath I didn’t realize I was holding and straightened my shoulders.

There was silence...followed by singular applause.

“Perfection. You never fail to impress me.”

Lilia Baranovskaya, my instructor - a woman with the ability to put the fear of God into her students with a single word - is currently my standing ovation.

My solo lessons with her were worth more than gold to me. When I began my serious pursuit of ballet, it seemed quite the opposite; I couldn't tolerate her constant barking and outrageous demands. I had been pushed to my limits more than I could stand, but with each improvement, my blossoming expertise was my ticket to receiving her praise.

I need your honest opinion, Lilia. Am I'm prepared enough?”

“I give nothing less than honesty, and I feel you are more than ready. Our recital is at the end of the month, and your progress has already surpassed expectations. All you must do is perfect it. The solo sessions have done you excellent and have kept your body in top condition. The extra days of training have not been interfering too terribly, have they?”

“No. Not at all. I practically live here.”

“It is difficult not to notice. You make my studio your residence more than any of my other students.” She folded her arms, keeping her focus in my direction. “Speaking of home, will your mother be planning to attend the recital?”

“I doubt it.”

“Ah.” Lilia nodded, beginning to step from across the room towards me. “I would have hoped to see Vitaliya again after such a time. Having worked alongside your mother to see her through fame, preparing her son for a career is no doubt an added highlight for her to treasure. I can easily imagine the thrill she would feel, returning to the dance hall of her youth and seeing you in it.”

“She isn’t that focused on her ballet anymore...if anything, she’s content with me taking her place.” With a shrug, I dropped my head. “Really, though, she's too busy. Her domestic life is tedious...and complicated.”

“Yuratchka, the love for your art is an attachment of your soul, regardless as to how complicated a relationship is. It will eternally remain a part of you, as long as you want it to be.” I could hear the bittersweet in her laugh as I felt her hand neatly situate the braided hair that fell down my back before gripping my shoulder. “If there is an additional piece of advice I will grant you, I would suggest that you never marry. You are far too beautiful to be taken from the stage like your mother was.” She gave a thoughtful nod before finishing her statement. “Now, no more of that. Let's talk over tea before you leave.”

"Sure. I could manage that." I obliged, following after as she lead me upstairs.

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“Black tea, honey, cinnamon, and cream, as per your usual.”

Settling down in a cozy seat within her lush living room, I draped my legs over one of the chair arms and stretched out along the other, nodding in approval and taking the dainty saucer which held my cup. The strain of today's work faded as I found myself at ease. Certainly, a warm drink would do my body well after a lengthy session in the midst of frigid February weather.

“Thanks, Lilia.” I immediately took a deep drink, only to regret it no more than a second later as it scalded my mouth. I used what dignity and grace I had built up for my instructor to not spit it out as I painfully swallowed. “Haah!!! You always get it too hot!”

The reaction I received was a shake of her head as she claimed a seat in front of me. “Nonsense. The samovar heats perfectly. You simply are just as impatient and eager to rush as you were throughout your youth. Not only did you inherit your looks from her, you picked up several of Vitaliya’s habits.”

“Eh, whatever...I swear, though, it wouldn't surprise me if it eventually boils the fuck out of my tongue someday.” I could already feel the uncomfortable sting of the tea’s aftermath while working on another sip, being careful to blow at the steam and sip it gradually. Nope - definitely too warm for comfort.

“I partially retract what I said; you are far more brash than she. Your language, Yuratchka; it is unbecoming of you to talk in such a manner, especially if you desire to present yourself as my student.” Tapping a nail a scolding upon the rim of the glass, her teacup was soon placed on the coffee table between us. “You may excel in your performance aspects and execution, but you have much to learn about yourself when it involves social presentation and mannerisms. You have an arduous journey ahead of you before you become prima, but I will train you to be proper yet.”

I couldn’t help but roll my eyes and chuckle as I curled my knees in, puffing another breath in a half-assed attempt to cool the inferno that was my beverage. “You can try as hard as you like, Lilia, but the fact will always remain that I’m not the typical prima candidate.”

“You were not the only dancer who wasn’t typical, Yuratchka. Vitya Nikiforov had the skills of a premier danseur when he was no older than you are. All this promise and accomplishment before he decided to retire...I was well aware that his love for ice skating far surpassed ballet, but to think he would give up both for marriage? Unbelievable.”

“Screw him. That was his own choice to fuck up his career by running off with a foreigner.”

“I will continue to tell you, Yuratchka Plisetsky. Language! You almost need that scalding of the tongue to remind you of that.” Grimacing in my direction, Lilia crossed her legs and folded her hands over her knee.

“So, with Viktor-”

“I do not have plans to discuss this further.”

“I’m not going to bitch about him anymore, Lilia! I want to know if you’ve heard from him since he decided to get hitched.”

With a hum of displeasure, she gave in, nodding slowly. “He will be coming to St. Petersburg a week before the recital. Not to perform, of course, but at least he will be present. He is bringing his bride with him; therefore, we will have the opportunity to meet whoever encouraged Vitya to run away to Japan.”

“Do you even know anything about his ‘bride’, aside from the fact that they're from Japan?”

“It is a young man, of course, who is four years Vitya's junior. I was told he met with him frequently during skating season, but aside from that, I received no further details. What little I do know, I have heard more than enough complaints with regards to it throughout the last few months.” She muttered something and glanced towards her phone. “Which is why I do not wish to discuss it. You are more than happy to ask him when he returns. Vitya’s decisions, while a shame, are his choice, so it does not affect nor concern you. That matter will not be spoken of further”

“Now, more importantly, you may not be the only in consideration to advance to be my prima, but you are now closer to that opportunity than any others I instruct. You are my only male en pointe dancer and my only male who can sufficiently reenact female-oriented roles. You are a rarity in the ballet world, which will heighten interest for potential companies and schools alike. Some will force expectations onto you because you are Vitaliya’s son and my pupil, but regardless of your family name, you have proven that you have the determination to reach your point of mastery. If you remain diligent and dedicated to your art, I will assist in helping you achieve it. Will you promise that for me?”

I lowered my cup slowly, leaning forward to make direct eye contact with the startling green of her irises.

“Lilia, I am the last person you have to worry about when the decision to pursue or not pursue my destiny is discussed. I was born to be a dancer, and I will create a spectacle of that for you and all the world to see.”

A statement more blunt could not be spoken; she agreed, noting the smile that softened her sharp features not long afterwards.

“Those are words I like to hear, Yuratchka.” The ceramic handle found its way hooked around her index finger as she lifted it to her lips. “Let us drink to your success.”

Pushing my attention back to the teacup, I hesitantly sipped from the rim again, realizing that the tea inside wasn't as hot as it was when first given to me. I drank deeply and gave a refreshed sigh.

The days I decided to spend extra time with Lilia were my favorite. It was nice to be partaking in interaction with someone who invested in my future. I didn’t doubt for a moment that being by her side would help me reach the goals I desired. I could tell that, while she definitely had her hands full with me, she enjoyed my company and actively celebrated the progress I made.

Being inside her home also gave me a means of comfort that was almost otherworldly. Her living space by itself was an experience, a private, comfortable loft situated above her impressive ballet. It contained more than enough space for a woman by herself, but just as she clarified, dedication to the art was first priority; if I was to be as successful as she, I would need to do the same.

I always questioned if she ever felt lonely, but marriage and companionship seemed to be a touchy subject for Lilia. Those few occasions that were casually discussing relationships would even turn her sour, and the topic would be discarded. I couldn’t complain nor blame her for it; I expressed my preferences the same way. She was happy being alone, and so was I.

‘Never marry’ was what she told me.

My mother's relationship had provided enough to deter me from any of that matrimonial bullshit. From what I’ve seen involving relationships and marriage, you can’t marry a person if you can’t control them; if this were true, I would be the furthest example of a desirable spouse.

Lilia had nothing to worry about.
OtabekxYuri: Cycle of Grief II

Prologue
Ignorance Pt. 1
Ignorance Pt. 2

One month shy of his 18th birthday, Yuri Plisetsky cannot face all the things his chaotic life has to offer. His mother lost in a whirlwind of beautiful lies, he is left to fight on his own in this cruel world.

What he doesn't realize is that life will soon change for him, and this cycle might finally reach its end, found in the arms of a stranger with his own pursuit for freedom.


Translations/Author Notes:

(So much ballet terminology this time, guys...if you have questions, look here: ballethub.com/ballet-terms-dic… )

samovar - a Russian kettle used to heat water for tea

A/N: I never mentioned that I really love writing for Lilia. I also really enjoy how much of a connection she and Yuri share in this story.

Next chapter coming soon!

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Ignorance Pt. 1
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“Mom…”

I found her face down and sprawled out upon the carpet of her bedroom floor while I was preparing to leave the house. From the multiple occasions I've found her in this condition, I knew that she was still alive, but I couldn't help myself imagining that she could easily pass for appearing dead to someone else.

It might be fucked up for me to think about my mother's death being a possibility, but preparing myself for the worst is quite the perk of mine.

I shifted onto my knees, crawled to her side, and turned her over cautiously. Her dark, sunken eyelids were shut tight as she remained motionless.

“Mom…MOM!”

As I gave a few gentle swats of my palm against her cheek, attempting to perturb her from the remainder of her slumber, she groaned and finally woke.

“Wha…? Yura-”

“Stop talking and use what energy you have to get your ass up, Mom. You can’t black out on the floor.”

During the barest beginning of my teen years, by the time I was twelve, I discovered my mother was addicted to prescription sleeping pills. Addiction was a concept that was somewhat vague to me, but I was aware that it made her less of a functioning person and more of someone who was dependent on everyone involved. As I got older, the clearer this truth revealed itself, and I came to understand just how long she had been doing this. As I continued to obtain this knowledge, the more I detested being here to view it.

I couldn’t help but wonder how many she had taken as I gave her support to stand. Her lack of self-care and nutrition was a haunting reminder, her body frail and thin even in comparison to my smaller frame.

“Yura…it’s fine. I’m fine.”

“No, you’re not. Stop. Talking.”

She finally fell quiet, lifting her fingers to brush messy, golden tangles away from her face. Mom almost seemed ashamed, but I wasn’t sure if the distant gaze was actually an emotion or whether she was still trying to wake from of the haze of a drug-induced sleep.

Vitaliya Plisetsky. Once upon a time, this woman was a prima ballerina that was a sparkling beacon in society. Now? She's nothing more than a pretty pill-popper - one who didn't live a very pretty life behind closed doors.

It’s a shame that someone who was so loved and admired by all of Russia had fallen this hard. Everything she built was brought to ruins, although she'd never let anyone hear a word of it. To the rest of the country, she had retired with grace and dignity to play her role as a mother, her smile plastered all over the media from the announcement. Old interviews and news broadcasts alike - even current articles that reflected on her accomplishments - agreed that their Vitaliya would cast an eternal light upon the world of ballet.

What she didn’t let them see was that this light was the diminishing glow of a dying star, for what spark she had left was lived on through me.

“Get in bed, Mom.” With how limp she was in my arms and how groggy she remained, it took a moment to ease her upon the mattress, gripping her by the legs and hoisting them up with the rest of her. “I want to say that I can’t believe this, but here you are again. Grandpa would be disappointed.”

“I'm sorry…” Aside from that, no response came after my comment, her head nestling into the soft, white ruffles of her pillowcase. Whether it was because she wasn't going to argue or because her mind was too clouded to process anything was, well, debatable.

"Just stay up there, and don't fall off." Getting her situated and tucked beneath her blankets, I turned to make my leave.

“Yura, don’t go.” She continued and reached out a hand, clasping hold of mine. “Stay with me a moment longer.”

“I can't wait around, Mom. I have to be at the studio in 20 minutes.”

“I’m..." She paused, eyes fluttering open. "I'm worried for you walking there by yourself. Could you at least take a bus?”

“I’m not wasting money on the bus. I walk to Lilia's on the daily. What’s the use?”

“Then I’ll get you money. Dmitri provides for us, Yura. I’m sure he wouldn’t mind if I spared a few Rubles to get you a month pa-”

“I don’t want it.”

“Yura, please-”

“No! Just keep it for yourself or something! I don’t want his fucking money!”

Dmitri Zakharov, the man who took my mother as his fiancée, is the bane of my existence and the entire reason she’s in this situation. She refuses to admit that he's bad for her...bad to her. Considering how fond she is of him and the extremes she takes in making sure he's satisfied, I can't help but wonder if he’s the only one whose happiness matters anymore.

Several people spare one glance at this house and think we're a beautiful, flawless family. They are blind to the man who lays hands upon my mother and runs illegal affairs for the Bratva. What they would think to know that he encourages Mom to fill herself up with chemicals, submits her to her vices by providing them, and leaves her for me to pick up the pieces day after day.

“Then let me-”

“I’ll keep walking. It’s not that big of a deal, Mom. I walk around St. Petersburg often, and I always return home. You should worry more about taking care of yourself, but that advice is about as productive as me talking to a brick wall, isn’t it?”

“I wish that I could say the words...to help you understand, Yura. I'm sorry.”

My patience had been wearing thin for ages now, due to this shit. For as long as I can remember, it’s been a woven series of lies that have unfurled in my grasp, and her apologies have become hollow to me. The more it happens, the less it hurts, yet the more she asks to be forgiven. I wanted to believe that all of this was hurting her, too.

In the end, her addiction and the glistening glass pedestal that defines her love for Dmitri are far more important.

If only she could realize that she's breaking the hearts of those who care about her. Even though the trips he made to St. Petersburg weren't frequent, Grandpa makes a constant effort to visit and talk sense into her. In fact, he's the only one on the outside who is aware of what happens here. With as many chances he's had to prevent her from damage, nothing ever gets through to her.

Therefore, keeping me from following the same path is what keeps him hopeful.

“Yuratchka, my grandson, lies can only be covered up to an extent. You can hide a body, but the rot of the corpse will emerge with time. I cannot dictate what your mother does with herself, but I can at least hope that you would never make those same mistakes.”

I can recall the frequent pleas made to my mother for me to live with him. Even with Grandpa being so far away, he's been more of a parent to me than I could ever gain here. I love and admire him very dearly, and if I could get myself to do it, I would leave to go to Moscow tonight and be at his door tomorrow.

However, even at a tender age, leaving her was not an option for me. That fact is the only reason why Grandpa has not taken further action.

“I really mean it. I’m sorry…”

“Stop apologizing, Mom. I need to head out now, or I'm going to be late. She's going to be pissed.”

“Be safe. я люблю тебя.”

I glanced back in the midst of leaving her bedside. It's sick. Of all the things she could say to me, she refuses to do the same. Hypocrite.

“You, too, Mom.”

While I highly condemned her for her decisions, I hated leaving her alone all the more.

With a heavy heart, aware that she would most likely sleep off our conversation, I stepped out and closed her bedroom door.
OtabekxYuri: Cycle of Grief I

Prologue
Ignorance Pt. 1
Ignorance Pt. 2

One month shy of his 18th birthday, Yuri Plisetsky cannot face all the things his chaotic life has to offer. His mother lost in a whirlwind of beautiful lies, he is left to fight on his own in this cruel world.

What he doesn't realize is that life will soon change for him, and this cycle might finally reach its end, found in the arms of a stranger with his own pursuit for freedom.

Translations/Author's Notes:

я люблю тебя = "I love you"

Bratva = the equivalent of the mafia in Russia

A/N: If you have any questions regarding Vitaliya or Dmitri, feel free to send them my way. Being the characters who represent the adults/parental figures in Yuri's life, I wanted to present the dysfunction right away. Be prepared to find out more of their past in future chapters!

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Cycle of Grief: Prologue
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Ignorance. Knowledge. Resistance. Realization. Anguish. Acceptance.

This is my cycle of grief.

What I'm grieving over is a little harder to place and explain. Finding one solid source is more difficult than most people could imagine.

First of all, the innocence that came with my childhood was short-lived - almost nonexistent. What left me a lifetime ago was currently unattainable, and what I found hardest to swallow had been coming to terms with this truth.

In addition, becoming a teenager during all of this felt like the end of the world; I found myself in denial and refused to accept this reality built around me. I didn't want to come to terms with the changes going on in my life, and I planned to go down fighting against the grain. Back then, it felt as though an entire decade and a half of my life had been wasted on living up to and accomplishing the dreams of someone who became nothing more than a crutch to the son she bore.

After all this time, it was when I decided to live by my own jurisdiction that I came to understand that I needed to forge my own path, whether that meant meeting expectations or not. However, I still haven't reached the point of accepting all the secrets I've discovered; now that I’m almost 18, I doubt I ever will.

Not much has changed in the two years after making the decision I did. I'm still pissed at my circumstances, but now, I'm done with petty bullshit; I’ve got worse problems to deal with and fewer people I want to open up this can of worms to.

I will become a stronger person on my own.

I'll finish this up and make it short and simple: my mother is a waste of space, her lover is all the more a waste of breath, and I'm wasting my time living in this house.

I just want out...but what keeps me here is knowing she wouldn't survive without me.

My name is Yuri Plisetsky, and I wish this cycle would come to an end.
OtabekxYuri: Cycle of Grief (Prologue)

Prologue
Ignorance Pt. 1
Ignorance Pt. 2

One month shy of his 18th birthday, Yuri Plisetsky cannot face all the things his chaotic life has to offer. His mother lost in a whirlwind of beautiful lies, he is left to fight on his own in this cruel world.

What he doesn't realize is that life will soon change for him, and this cycle might finally reach its end, found in the arms of a stranger with his own pursuit for freedom.

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Hello, everyone!

This is an Alternate Universe fanfiction told in the POV of 17 year old Yuri Plisetsky. More or less, this is the result of my interpretation based on the question "What would happen if Yuri didn't pursue ice skating and found himself in a bad familial situation?".

As an additional warning, there will be some gritty and dark subject matter that is involved, such as physical abuse, drug use, and sexual assault, along with other things that may be added in the future. If there are more things to be added, I will continue to tag them.

The main pair in this fanfic is, in fact, OtabekxYuri. However, there will be mentions of ViktorxYuuri, not to mention that they will also come into the story later on!

Thank you for reading!

~Traffy

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Crystal Gem Chalcedony
Alright, so those of you who know who Chalcedony is know that she's a Homeworld gem.

:iconxinck16: and I are in the midst of an rp where she and Obsidian were sent to Earth to be placed in a secret facility in Beta Kindergarten. Since the two were found, they took Chal in.

This is that 'what if Chal decides to become a Crystal Gem?' question answered.
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Art Trade: Cuprian Elbaite
Here you are, :iconzinniasnowdrop:

Your art trade is complete! I hope that you like how she came out!

Cuprian Elbaite ended up being such a unique character to colour!
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Hello, everyone!

I know it's been AGES since I've been active, but I will explain the reasoning behind this right here and now.

You see, my laptop unfortunately fell right on Christmas day of last year; I suppose the hard drive was bumped out, and I have no means of getting it back in place that doesn't cost money. Since my warranty really isn't an issue, I believe my friend and I are planning to take it apart and see if we can tend to the problem.

I also got a new tablet that, as it turns out, doesn't like to work with many programs....I don't want to purchase an expensive program any time soon (because as much as I like SAI, I don't have $54.00 to spend on it...), so I need to figure out a solution to THAT little situation.

Thank you for being patient with me, for those of you still around. ;O; I miss you all. Hopefully, I can find a solution to this soon!

~Traffy

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Namine-Kitten Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2017  Hobbyist
Hey sam i was just wondering if your still doing commissions?
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traffycake Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Hi Sammy! It's nice to hear from you! :heart:

I'm always doing commissions! Just talk out details with me, and I will see what I can do!
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Namine-Kitten Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2017  Hobbyist
Hello hello sam and it's nice too hear from you too,i misses talking too you too and how are you doing? 


Cool,you mean want kind i want? 
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traffycake Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Yes! I have different prices for different types of commissions, and depending how many characters and how coloured you want it, the price varies!
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ZinniaSnowdrop Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist

:iconthxwatchplz: :heart: It really means a lot to me! :heart:

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ZinniaSnowdrop Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey thanks for actually favouriting Chalcedony (Traffycake's Gem OC) Laxus and Gajeel by ZinniaSnowdrop  I really appreciate it! :iconpervylaxusplz: :heart:
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shozurei Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday. Birthday cake  icon 
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traffycake Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you!!!! :love:
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shozurei Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Welcome.
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The-Mage-Of-Nothing Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2016  Student Digital Artist
I wish you a happy birthday! ^^
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